I have no fucking clue how i turned out the way i did with such an open mind,when the fucking people who raised me are such closed minded idiots! I had my mom watch audition.the whole fucking time she made fun of the japanese people because of their language.She didn't even give it a chance before she started fucking critiszing it. Its bullshit! Its no wonder why i stay down in my room most of the time.It's the fact that i cannot sit up there with morons who say they aren't racist yet they have such harsh judgement about other cultures.God forbid if you aren't fucking white you don't belong in this country apparently.I got so fucking pissed off. They wouldnt listen to me when i was screaming that we have no fucking right to say who can live here or not because this is not our country.They think they have the fucking right to twell people they should stay in their own country when in fact this is a free fucking country built for all races and cultures.They're so fucking contradicting considering we all came from other countries.We would not fucking be here if it wasn't for the fact that our ancestors moved here.But oh no people from other countries shouldnt be allowed here.They try fucking covering up their ignorance by saying well i was born and raised here. THEY CANT FUCKING GET IT THROUGH THEIR HEADS THAT IT TOOK FOREIGN PEOPLE COMING TO THIS COUNTRY TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN! IF THEY WOULDNT HAVE WE WOULD HAVE ALL BEEN BORN IN SEPERATE COUNTIES!! They think they're right about everything and anything they say is how it is. NO! THEY ARE SO FAR FROM BEING RIGHT IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY! They tell me i can't take the truth.I swear they tell me i can't handle the truth because in all reality they can't handle the truth themselves.I guess it pisses them off that they raised me but im completely different from them and do think the way they do.It fucking baffles them how I grew up to embrace stuff different than them.Not to be a snob or anything , but they just don't like the fact that I'm smarter than them.They say they aren't racist but they can say the "N" word with no problem and laugh about it. They see some black guy on the news shot someone , you know what they say? " Thats blacks for you." Yeah tell me thats not fucking racist.I get screamed at when i get upset over movies when someones getting made fun of or someones messing with someone of another race and they just tell It's a movie its not real.I'm sorry but real or not it's still being done.They had to act out the part and say it didn't they? So it is real what they're saying.Whoever came up with it had that thought in their had when they wrote it.So its pretty fuckin real if you think about it.The fact that someone think up something so harsh racist and demeaning is just as bad as it really happening.Then they put it out for entertainment thats even worse! They cant fucking stand the fact that i am the way i am and i dress like this and listen to the stuff i listen too and watching horror movies full of violence but i turned out to be a better person than they could ever be.Then they get pissed off when a foreign person talks their language infront of them... cause ya know this is " our country"*rolls eyes*.because they can't understand them.I tell them we do the samething to them they don't know what were saying and they say well they do it right infront of us! Oh because we do it behind their backs is supposed to make it so much better!! But you know what the fact that they can do it right infront of us KNOWING we cant understand them and the fact that we can't do it right infront of them. Shows they have more balls than we do.I tell them if they shouldn't be in our country then we should go to their i say this meaning the whole race.and they take it as me saying that us like our family and say they dont go to other countrys and dont want to.Once again they're idiots.Then they try getting me to think like they do by saying well we dont get treated to well when we go to their countries.They tell me this like i don't knwo it already.I would fucking treat us bad too after all the shits americans have put them through fuck.They think because we're so called americans which we are not that we should be fucking god to everybody else.They should bow before us and treat us like kings they think americans do no wrong.They wont tell you that but you know its in their head.Cause anytime something bad happens and it involves an american doing it they dont sit there and go... fuckin americans. But the second its someone from another country BOOM! well fuckthem so and so's they need to go back to their country.ARRRRRGGGHHHHH!!!!! it makes me so fucking angry!!!! Theres so much more i could be bitch about right now but by the time i finish it'll have been a week.I cannot wait to go to cali.a year cannot come quick enough.

Okay I am such a nerd.I knew this before but that totally confirmed it for me.I'm watching "room 401" and a movie preview comes on and its a Marvel movie.I was like oh no what comic book are they gonna screw up now? I kept watching it and its looking badass.Then he he starts making something then he sets this metal mask down. I said " GAAAAAAAASSSSSSP!!!! OMGS! IRONMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"*spazzes* Then right after i do that ironman starts playing and i was like DAMNIT IM FUCKIN AWESOME! *coughs* Yeah, im such a nerd.